So exactly two days after i made my blog entry about being married I found out that my husband had been going around town telling everyone just how bad of a person he thinks I am.
I am apparently a horrible person because I tried to have him take care of himself, I quit my job which he had been pushing me to do, and we argued A LOT.
We were married for nine months going on ten now and I found out one night when i went in to his workplace-a gas station- to get a coffee in order to get through the 7 am paper route i had picked up for his parents while they were on vacation, and one of his coworkers pulled me to the side:
(Coworker=C Me=M)
C: Hey, are you two getting a separation or divorce?
M: As far as I know, no
C: Well, that's what he's been telling everyone around here.
M: Yeah, well, until he talks to me or draws up papers we're still together.
C: Hey, at least now you know.
M: Yeah, but no offence I'm finding out by someone who it doesn't even concern, frankly you shouldn't even know about this.
END
When I asked him about it he told me he didn't have time to talk about it, so on my way back home i called the store and demanded answers. Turns out that he had stopped loving me just three weeks after we got married which when the dates are calculated would be right around the time that I miscarried our first kid.
He had promised me that it didn't change anything between us, but as you can guess it did.
He claims that he had tried to see past it but then in December i had miscarried yet again, which would have been our second child, which made him not even want to look at me. My bad heart had gotten so bad that it was keeping me from being able to carry a baby to term.
Then months later i had quit my job which he had been pushing me to do for the last eight months I had worked there. He told me one night while we were discussing the divorce and what we were going to do or even if we were going to go through with it that me quitting my job was the last straw, and that he didn't want me anymore.
I want to know how my miscarriages were my fault when i did everything that i could in order to protect and nurture my baby(s). Why quitting my job was such a bad thing when he was telling me to quit for pretty much the whole time we were together.
The one thing he keeps leaving out when he's running around and telling everyone just how bad of a wife I was is the fact that he cheated the whole time we were married. I would need both hands to count off all of the girls he was with.
Yet i'm the bad guy?
